I am so sorry. I apologize to the world – to all of my friends, my family, everyone that has known me. I have not been the Christian that I should have been. And I must confess to you all of my transgressions, though they are great in number. I realize that I have been forgiven by the Savior, but I feel that I also need to ask forgiveness from you, my brothers and sisters.
I am sorry. I am sorry that I have said one thing with my lips, and said another entirely with my actions. I am sorry that failed to do what I know to be right, and I have done what I know to be wrong. I am sorry. I have have ignored the abandoned of this world – I have not fed the hungry, tended to the sick, or clothed the naked. I have failed to defend the weak and innocent. I have turned my eyes away from the lowly and covered my ears to ignore the cries of those who needed me most.
I have used harsh words and thought mean things. I have wanted things that don’t belong to me. I have gossiped too much and complemented too little. I have placed my own needs high above all others. I have failed to be a humble servant.
I am quick to judge others, and reluctant to judge myself honestly. I have excused what I’ve failed to do and rationalized what I have done. I’ve kept quiet when I should have spoken up. And I’ve opened my mouth and said cruel, harsh words on things I know nothing about. I’ve spent too much money on myself, and not given enough to the poor.
I have been everything I hate – selfish, greedy, judgmental, a liar, a cheater, cruel, harsh, hateful, spiteful, lustful, prideful. Sinful.
I have dragged the name of the Savior I love above all else through the mud.
And I hope that you, the world, can forgive me. I have failed to represent Christ the way I should have.
I’m a liar. I’m a cheater. I’m a sinner. – I’m a Christian.
When Say I Am A Christian
–Carol Wimmer
When I say…”I am a Christian”
I’m not shouting “I am saved”
I’m whispering “I was lost”
That is why I chose this way.
When I say…”I am a Christian”
I don’t speak of this with pride.
I’m confessing that I stumble
And need someone to be my guide.
When I say…”I am a Christian”
I’m not trying to be strong.
I’m professing that I’m weak
And pray for strength to carry on.
When I say…”I am a Christian”
I’m not bragging of success.
I’m admitting I have failed
And cannot ever pay the debt.
When I say…”I am a Christian”
I’m not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are all too visible,
But God believes I’m worth it.
When I say…”I am a Christian”
I still feel the sting of pain
I have my share of heartaches
Which is why I speak His name.
When I say…”I am a Christian”
I do not wish to judge.
I have no authority.
I only know I’m loved.
That I Might Have Life 
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September 30, 2009 at 3:42 PM
Matt
Enjoyed the post. Thanks for sharing!
September 30, 2009 at 8:55 PM
Katelynn
Okay this is really awesome and I love it and the girl who wrote it 🙂
January 26, 2010 at 5:07 PM
Chuck
Just wanted to let you know… I had an inductive bible class today at school, and we were going deep into 1 John… and after leaving that class I had on my heart, “I’m a Sinner, and I’m Sorry.” I don’t know why, but googled it, and this is the first thing that came up… just wanted to say thank you for putting words to something that was only barely on my mind.
January 28, 2010 at 3:44 PM
emilymueller143
You’re welcome. I’m glad that it helped you! I think that this should be the fundamental cry of our hearts as Christians. That we are sinners, but by the grace of God we can enjoy the fullness of, well, everything that is God. The hard part is keeping this attitude instead of falling into the “Look at me, I’m a Super-Christian” attitude – which, I admit, is far easier and more comfortable!
January 24, 2012 at 5:03 PM
Harland Mayes
Remarkably this is an encouraging post that you’re sharing. I destroyed my family with unfaithfulness and drinking , essentially bringing shame on the reputation of Christ, who gave His life to redeem me. As a husband and father it was a privledged position I was in and instead of faithfully living and glorifying the Lord, I gave many, especially the ones closest to me, reasons to blaspheme.. and even horribly so since I knew the word and am more responsible because of it…
thank you and actually I thank the Lord for your testimoney..I also trust that the Lord is working in your heart, no doubt more sensitive to conviction because of the Lords forgiveness…
Not a minute goes by that I dont wrestle with my past. The hardest lesson I still have to learn is that the Lord covered my sins and totally satisfied the justice of God on my behalf. It’s easier for me to simply want to leave this life but thats clearly not the Lords plan, but instead He is holding me close and carrying me thru . I’m attending a divorce recovery class